everythursday

Day 434

Wed, 01 May 2013 23:57:55 +0800

What made me happy today?

day one of work starts tmr sigh, good luck to us. and me who hasnt touched any ho handbooks yet hahaha, after all that ive said last week abt starting to read them. ah well. before call next wed, i promise. although im doing active call first LOL.

and thank you god for such a lovely bunch of classmates, despite the few oddballs and mean pple, the rest are and have been generally awesome for the past five years, and for all the friends whom i have met and made along the way. we stuck it out and made it through together!

thank you for my grad trip buddies. for my studying buddies. for my ifg and i whatever g netball buddies. for my clique. for all my cgs. and for all the other random pple here and there whom i actl talk to. good luck guys, we will get through this year too.

and this is whr all my thoughts go, all the things that pple say on fb statuses but which i got banned from putting on fb by s haha. thank you god for letting me pass, not though particularly well or as well as i would have liked my grades to be, i mean some pple beat my grades but oh well thats another regret altogether, yes whiny me. thank you god for the seniors whom i met along the way and esp s and k.

damn, i miss s. okay goodnight its time to read a bit more and then go sleep. and hopefully my jetlag gets rid of itself soon.

Photo

Wed, 01 May 2013 23:50:15 +0800

Photo

Wed, 01 May 2013 23:48:55 +0800

Photo

Wed, 01 May 2013 23:47:49 +0800

Photo

Wed, 01 May 2013 23:47:32 +0800

"Dress shabbily and they remember the dress; dress impeccably and they remember the woman."

Wed, 01 May 2013 23:46:43 +0800

“Dress shabbily and they remember the dress; dress impeccably and they remember the woman.”

- Coco Chanel

Photo

Wed, 01 May 2013 23:46:25 +0800

Photo

Wed, 24 Apr 2013 11:25:02 +0800

Day 433

Tue, 23 Apr 2013 01:15:00 +0800

What made me happy today?

i never ever do a travel log haha. might regret one of these days. because ive been dying to write about my month of grad tripping but never got around to, and now one day after im back ive lost all that thoughts and feelings alr. HMM well, sucks to be me i guess haha

so anyway this one month to be exact, ive took 17 flights and been to 9 cities. tromso oslo krakow amsterdam utrecht leiden budapest new york and las vegas. and been with 11 different people. the longest ive travelled with is f, followed by p and c and then s. and the rest are just one or two days. best traveling group ever, c f p and me, though i never did much with regard to trip planning, hopefully they didnt mind, haha but im easy going anyway. and we never quarreled in that two wks. really really missed them when we all split during amsterdam. and then s, thanks for putting up with me and all my moods, just the two of us, every single quiet moment and glum and tired moment i had was amplified. every single time i didnt feel like talking, which didnt seem so bad when i was with the three girls, just seemed so much worse when i was with him only. but he put up with it, and constantly asked me whether i was tired, hungry, needed my coffee, and so on. just too damn nice and sweet, and i was just a friend to him, not a sister or a childhood friend or a good friend or a best friend or anything more than that. never traveled with him before but wouldnt mind doing this agn someday, if that is even possible haa.

norway was freezing, didnt see no northern lights despite two tours, wasted money sleeping on the bus and freezing our asses off haha. super disappointed. but kind of gotten over that alr haha. and no shooting stars too oh well. dog sledding more than made up for it, it was super duper uber DAMN FUN. the huskies were so adorable. dinner night was smelly but yummy food. oslo was a brief memory, didnt spend much time there, tobogganing and then walked around the shopping district and had coffee. just any usual city i guess, but pretty all the same. i love all cities haha.

flew to krakow after, pretty rustic place, everywhere is pretty to me eh hahhaa, but diff feel from the other cities. all that architecture and dark streets, ahhh. did the usual city walking tour, communism tour, jewish quarter tour, loved the jewish one the most, went to the salt mines and auschwitz museum, had to walk on my own to absorb everything haha but im like that i guess. got to know this funny boy in our hostel room from the states, and hes really funny hahahha.

amsterdam with f and p after, canals and more pretty architecture, i fell in love with the place after the first night and second day. everywhere you look, there are pple from diff places in that one city, something like new york to me, which is what i love. and everyone cant give a shit about everyone else, and its so typical new york and its so typical me. and once you step away from the city centre, there are all these pretty canals and streets that are so quiet and so damn nice to walk along i never get tired of them. went to kinderdijk to see windmills, tulips, van gogh museum, the modern art museum which until now i still havent mastered the name of yet haha, pseudo smoked weed with my lame ass friends, utrecht and leiden to walk around, jewish quarter flea market, and walking around the place like i owned it after a week hahahah. think i spent my longest time there, in netherlands i mean. so many other cities to see there but NO TIME.

budapest with y next. was so inspired to do a proper eastern europe stint after krakow and budapest. what with all that communism and jewish history. need to spend two wks in germany next time HAHA. did the same as in krakow, city + communism + jewish walking tours, chain bridge, photos, eat, heroes square, central market hall which had nothing, pub crawl and caving on the last day! was so damn shag after pub crawl, all that dinner wine and shots and beer killed me and y, and i stopped before i puked - at least i finally learnt my lessons after countless times of puking after too much drinking and clubbing last year haha. didnt sleep much and then went for caving the next afternoon, and had to leave at 230am for a flight HMM. was so dead when i finally reached new york esp since i was watching tv and didnt sleep on the flights there.

and finally last stop new york with s. possibly the best stop of this entire trip. not just the magic of new york which was more than enough to bring me back within a year, but it was a combination of new york and him which turned out to be surprisingly nice and fun. i was hoping that it wouldnt be awkward since i have never spent any time with him alone before, much less to say one freaking week in his place, and okay come to think about it i have never spent much time with him anywhere before, save for dinner with j that one night. oh and med lib with him the other time too, ALRIGHT.

not going to say much, because if i were to go into details we would be at this for the next three days, and anyway the feelings are gone now, sort of. all i will say is that he was really too damn sweet and nice to me, and not even my good friends treat me that well, and trust me when i say that NO GUY is that nice seriously. r agreed with me. during that one week with him, i never had to think or take care of myself or plan anything or decide anything, my biggest decision was prob what cuisine i wanted for lunch/dinner. and whr i wanted to go, but even that was in broad terms, like i want to go to brooklyn and he brought me around there. maybe because of that, the two or three times i had to be alone and meet him somewhere, i got my ass lost HAHA. and even when i was meeting other pple, he told me how to get myself there. and every night that i wasnt with him, he would text if i was lost or gotten robbed when it got too late. and vegas with him.

still rmb that one time in vegas he asked me out of the blue “are you the wild type?” or smth along that line and it was such a random qn and he always mumbles i had to get him to repeat that three times before i was sure i was hearing the right qn. and then he said smth like “you look like you’ve seen alot” and i didnt know what to reply to that, and until now its still in my head hahha, shld have just asked him why but i didnt.

oh oh and i have to say that i bought a beauty and the beast music box from poland hahaha and now i keep playing it yay.

met j and r in new york for a day too. and frankly speaking one day spent with j still didnt make me like her any better, though she is truly nice. i just didnt like that she was so freaking kaypoh, kept staring at my phone when s texted and i was replying him, kept asking who i was staying with and if i had anything going on with my housemate - LIKE SERIOUSLY?! and okay yes their south america trip sounded fun but it wasnt my cup of tea, ive done my fair share of partying back in sg and i keep telling myself im too old for this alr hahaha, though more clubbing and partying has never hurt me and i have never rejected any. and really all that cheating and making out with strangers? i refuse to do that anymore. not after taiwan and that butter night. i was so disgusted with myself after those two times, so hopefully not anymore. not really jealous of that aspect of their trip in that sense. to me, i had nyc and s which more than made up for it esp when he was texting me throughout the entire day as they were telling me all that stuff. the only thing i craved for was some intimacy and security that could truly be my own, and not whatever weird thing was going on between s and me and that nagging thought at the back of my head that kept telling me he has a gf back home.

but i was jealous of peru and machu picchu and the other adventures. someday maybe. im still looking for that gap year off.

on another note, passed mbbs, imagine that s was the one with me when i checked my results hahaha. nope didnt apply for residency and didnt get any duh. ortho first. means i either didnt get gs or paeds, hoping that its paeds that rejected me and not gs.

oh and forgot to mention that i came home on my last night from a late yankees game to my own personal cheese platter and magnolia bakery banana bread pudding. too damn fucking sweet. i really melted that night.

okay batt dying, and its past 1am but im damn awake now, slept 18h til 630pm today sigh. 36h spent in airports and planes is truly no joke, hopefully i get to sleep by 3am tonight and wake up in time for some errand running tmr. goodnight!

[edit] oh and i also need to add that im extremely fucking sad that t left starbucks alr. havent had time to talk about that yet, maybe some other day, or maybe not. since it was all happening during my study period. and i was so sad when i flew off. and then when i fly back home, i was devastated over other stuff. haha i never seem to be happy when i fly off sigh.

Day 432

Sat, 09 Mar 2013 18:41:17 +0800

What made me happy today?

this is such an awkward in the middle of nowhere post but i really really just want to say that im vvv thankful for today and the cases and people i got. so a big fat THANK YOU. to everyone who has helped me along the way, including seniors accounts, the love hahaha.

and now back to med longs. before i truly fail med AHAHA. and far from over yet, but getting there :)

Save Yourself

Mon, 21 Jan 2013 21:14:15 +0800

Save Yourself

Day 431

Sun, 20 Jan 2013 19:14:37 +0800

What made me happy today?

oops guys i am gg to disappear for another three months agn, til the end of my exams. havent had time write anything for the past two weeks cuz derm was catching up with me. but just finished derm eopt two days ago and starting on ID this week. and its six weeks more to go. im too damn stressed and tired for my own good sigh.

on a better note, grad trip planning and booking all done, except for the last week because i will be alone hahaha, which would also explain why its still not planned yet. will do so soon, maybe next weekend when i get tired of studying agn. like how i just booked my ryanair netherlands-budapest flight ticket when i got tired of IM just now.

see you guys back here when i can! and pls keep me and my results in your prayers thanks HAHA shameless :)

Photo

Sun, 06 Jan 2013 23:43:15 +0800

Photo

Fri, 04 Jan 2013 11:11:50 +0800

Photo

Fri, 04 Jan 2013 11:10:00 +0800

Day 430

Fri, 04 Jan 2013 00:10:14 +0800

What made me happy today?

finally finally watched les miserables on the screen with y r a f and j yest after a full day of lects, thank goodness i did not pangseh and it happened, because it was the best ever seriously. and no i have not watched the actual musical yet because i havent been to london so i havent had the opportunity to do my usual rounds of musicals at west end yet. and its stopped showing in broadway gah. well its coming back to broadway next year if that helps haha, that is if i fly to nyc agn before i get the chance to go london. love all the songs and i really love samantha barks at eponine. its unnatural that i actl like ALL the songs in a musical because i usually dont, okay i mean save for mamma mia because i practically grew up with abba.

spent the rest of last night reading the actual storyline of les miserables on wiki haa. and spent the whole time supposedly studying in starbucks just now, but instead reading about the french june rebellion which was the inspiration behind les miserables and then listening to les miserables 25th anniversary concert on youtube. clearly pleased with myself haha.

been having lects everyday and hols are ending, only left with this weekend which is going to be spent in ncc having lects, AGAIN. i really hate m5 and mbbs studying. just started on paeds today, so going to fail paeds. and need to find mrcpch resources, desperate times call for desperate measures seriously. i need smth to inspire me so badly for paeds. at least adult med isnt that bad anymore, but still a terribly tragic state. was so tempted to buy the mrcp paces 2 book just now, but refusing to spend the money haa. thinking that maybe dr e would have the e book version which he would have given us during electives, but obviously i have yet to check lol. immense inertia and laziness.

okay enough rubbish since im making no sense. going to shower now and then wowp and sleep. goodnight.

Photo

Thu, 03 Jan 2013 23:58:33 +0800

Photo

Thu, 03 Jan 2013 23:56:40 +0800

"And nobody felt sad as long as we could postpone tomorrow with more nostalgia."

Thu, 03 Jan 2013 23:55:10 +0800

“And nobody felt sad as long as we could postpone tomorrow with more nostalgia.”

- Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower

Photo

Thu, 03 Jan 2013 23:52:05 +0800